35 years of marriage

June 5, 1982 these 2 young kids said “I do” and today they say, “I still do.”  35 years later they still choose each other.  


What an amazing accomplishment! As soon of my married friends know, marriage life ain’t always rainbows and unicorns.  It’s hard work.  And my parents marriage is not perfect and they have had their own struggles.  But I love their relationship today.  I love that my dad still sends her flowers, just because.  I love that he takes her on dates.  I love that he takes her shopping because he wants her to always look her best.  I love that he comes behind her and grabs her and tells her that she’s beautiful and other yucky rated R stuff.  I love that she takes care of him.  She makes breakfast, lunch and dinner for him.  She calls him to tell him she loves him.  I love that she grabs his hand while they are in the car.  


Throughout the years I have learned so much from my parents marriage.  Some things I have applied in my own marriage.  I am so grateful for my parents and the wonderful & Godly example they have been to me, my marriage and family.  

Mom & Dad, Happy Anniversary!! I pray that God will bless you another 35 years and that your later years will be better than your former years! That God will grant all of your hearts desires and that He will open crazy doors for you, your marriage and ministry.  (but secretly I pray that a door would be open in Dallas, TX). Love you both to the moon and back!!

A little boys prayer


Four years ago a little boy was learning about prayer. He was learning that the Bible tells us to write down our request and wait for God to answer our prayers.  

I read Habakkuk 2:2-3 to him,

“And then GOD answered: “Write this. Write what you see. Write it out in big block letters so that it can be read on the run. This vision-message is a witness pointing to what’s coming. It aches for the coming—it can hardly wait! And it doesn’t lie. If it seems slow in coming, wait. It’s on its way. It will come right on time.”

He wrote in my journal. He wrote down his hearts desires that evening. And we prayed over them. And we believed God for them.  

Four years later, he has a dad. Not just any dad, but a broken and hurt relationship was mended and our little family was reconciled. He has a brother. Not just any brother, but a sweet miracle that doctors said was impossible. We have a home, where memories are made and love is felt.  

And we are believing for number 4. Gods not done answering this little boys prayers.  

Never give up on a prayer that you prayed. He will answer you. It may not look like you had imagined. But He will give you the very best.  

xoxo

11 years and worth it 


Every one is always surprised when we say, we have an 11 year old and a newborn. Heck, it’s quite amusing to us too.  

Some people like to wait a couple years in between children. We waited 11. Not by choice, but it was definitely in Gods plan all along.  

Sure I would have loved for Caleb to grow up with a brother or sister. There were so many times that I would send him outside to play and 10 minutes later he’d come in and say it’s boring to play by myself. No one to share with, fight with, explore with.  

Here we are 11 years later and I don’t think it could be anymore perfect. Caleb is thrilled about his baby brother. Every day he comes home from school, goes straight to the sink to wash off all the school germs then comes to his brother to give him a dap and a kiss. He ask to hold him, feed him, burp him. If I could only get him to change diapers this would be the life! Caleb wants to be the one to carry the diaper bag, push the stroller, anything to be right by brothers side.  

We are so incredibly blessed to have 2 such amazing boys, 11 years apart. Gods timing was perfect.  

xoxo 

A life changing month


It’s 3am and baby is sleeping. I should be asleep as we are driving back home in about 2 hours. But all I want to do is just stare at this precious gift.

It’s been one whole month since our life has changed.  Xander is a week old here but I’ll update the picture when it’s not 3am.  

I obviously love Caleb. He was my firstborn. I sit back and still can’t believe how big he is. How grown up he is. He is such an amazing kid. So well behaved, good manners, great attitude, smart, soft hearted…I mean we couldn’t have been more blessed with him. But then came Xander. I didn’t think my heart could love like this again. But God makes a way.  

As I stare at this sweet boy, I cry with tears of joy and gratitude. I cannot thank God enough for bringing him to us. Of all people God could have chosen, He chose us.  

“Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb. I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking! Body and soul, I am marvelously made! I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day.” ‭‭Psalm‬ ‭139:13-16‬ ‭MSG‬‬

From every, “No you can’t get pregnant” to “agenesis of the corpus callosum” nonsense God’s hand was over this child. Bit by bit God created him, perfectly and wonderfully made.  

Every time I hold this child, I am reminded of Gods goodness, of His faithfulness, of His love. He is such a good, good father. We are so underserving of such a miracle.  

What an incredible month it has been. I cannot wait to see what else God has in store for my two sweet boys.  

Happy one month sweet Xander!
xoxo

Almost time! 


T-minus 24 hours and little baby will be in our arms! That is if he decides not to come any sooner 😬 
There are a million and one thoughts running through my head right about now. So many different emotions I’m trying to process through not to mention the crazy pregnancy hormones have been unleashed these last couple of weeks.  
But at the end of all the crazy thoughts my heart is so overwhelmed with gratitude.  I’m overjoyed that God gave us a child, when we were told it couldn’t happen.  I’m overwhelmed by the love and support we have received from our family and our amazing church family.  They have stood next to us through every single moment and been such an encouragement for us.  I’m overwhelmed by God’s provision, the strength that He has give us, the grace to walk through this season.  
I cannot wait to hold this little guy in my arms and literally smoother him with kisses.  And we can’t wait to share this time with you as well!  Stay tuned folks! 
xoxo

Dear brother,


I write this post as we wait to be seen by the doctor.  Brother! Can you please come out and play already! 

Caleb wrote a letter to Xander the other day and I wanted to share his sweet heart with you.  
Dear Xander,

There is nothing that I have wanted more than a little brother.  Even though the doctors said you will have problems, I’ve prayed for you and believed you were going to be perfect. And you are! And I haven’t even met you! 

There has been so many questions I have like, what are you going to look like? What skin color? What eye color? What hair color?

There are just endless wonders about you!  And I will make sure to protect you, after all it’s my duty! We all thought you were a miracle and you are a blessing! We all love you and you are perfectly made! 

Love, 

Caleb 

This little boy just melts my heart with his sweetness! ❤ He will be such a great brother!! 

xoxo

what the what?

The closer and closer we get to meeting the little guy, the more and more I seem to be freaking out. Hahaha. I have so many mixed emotions about it all.  Obviously excitement to see him, embrace him and love on him.  Then there is a feeling of being overwhelmed by all of the to-do’s before his arrival.  I mean no matter how much you dust and vacuum the house just never seems to stay clean.  Then, there is the thoughts of do we have everything we need? Do we have enough blankets, wash clothes, diapers? Well crap we haven’t even taken the car seat out of the box to assemble.  The bassinet hasn’t come in the mail yet.  What about Caleb?  Have we spent enough time with him? Have we answered all of his questions? Is everything squared away at work? The list seems to go on forever…

 

Am I the only one that feels this way? Are there any other mama’s out there that have had similar thoughts?  Or am I just the crazy one?  Because I’ve been known to be a little (or lot) crazy.

 

I love that my husband is so calm, on the outside at least. He reassures me that everything is going to be ok.  And if Xander comes early, which is a possibility, that we’ll just “wing it”.  He’s much better at ‘winging’ than I am.  See the control freak inside again??

 

Well keep us in your prayers and if you have any advice, would love to hear it!

xoxo

Showered

Can I just start off with how much I adore and appreciate all of my friends that love and spoil me?!

And spoiled is exactly how I felt last Saturday for Xander’s shower.  Here are a few pictures, taken by my sweet friend Sylvia from FototasticDFW.



Cake & cookies were done by me 😊 I know, I know, I wasn’t supposed to do anything but I couldn’t let my friends do everything!

And how about this precious teepee?! You have no idea the headache we went through trying to get a teepee. Sheesh. We finally got this one from Amazon and had absolutely no problems.  I think it was well worth it, what do you think?

I just loved this super simple photo backdrop. My dear friend found this rug at Hobby Lobby and it was just perfect with the theme 💙


Everything was just perfect. And most of all, I am so glad that I have the most amazing friends that I get to share my life with!

xoxo

One down, a lifetime to go!


365 days ago, I said yes to my best friend. I still find it strange sometimes that we are married. Our journey started in the fall of 2001. Not many people you know have had a 14 year engagement right? Well us either haha. But although our road hasn’t been as easy one, in fact pretty darn difficult if I must be honest. I wouldn’t change one minute of it. 

I absolutely love the man that Courtney is today. I love all of his annoying habits. For instance, the fact that he doesn’t dry his hands after rinsing them or the fact that he can live all day, very happily actually without stressing whether or not the bed is made. I love all of his great qualities too. The ones that most people don’t see in him. The ones that even he doesn’t realize that he carries. 

I envisioned a blog of “Do’s & Don’t Do’s” in the first year of marriage but who am I kidding, we have no clue what we are doing. We have no idea if we are doing anything right or if we have it all wrong. Not too mention this first year of marriage for us hasn’t exactly been honeymoon bliss. For instance, the first 2 months in fact I had bronchitits and he slept on the couch because my snoring was horrendous.  He also had a job for the majority of the year that demanded him to work 100+ hours a week so we rarely saw each other. 

However, we have managed to learn a couple of things along the way.  First, we learned to not compare our marriage to our friends marriages. Every marriage is different. And what may work for our friends, doesn’t work for us.  We’ve also used the word “intentional” quite often this year.  It’s so easy to get so busy with the duties of life, work, children that you forget that your spouse needs attention.  Although we would love to have more time with each other, we strive to be intentional with the time that we do have for one another. 

Also, we’ve learned that every day that we wake up to each other, we make a decision to love one another and to make this thing work. We choose each other every single day.  And I’m looking forward to a lifetime with him! 

Happy Anniversary babe! xoxo

Photo credits: Meshali Mitchell 

To be thankful….

Today, is thanksgiving day. And many are enjoying the day with their family and friends eating tons of amazing carb-filled food. But I woke up today with such a heavy heart.

Yesterday, Courtney and I received some news about our sweet little that we were not expecting. Several weeks ago the doctors noticed that baby Xander had too much fluid around his brain. We were scheduled to have a fetal MRI yesterday morning and we were praying and believing that the doctors were completely wrong.

To much avail, we were told that baby Xander was diagnosed with agenesis of the corpus callosum, or ACC. He is missing the section of the brain that connects the left side to the right side. ACC is caused when there is a disruption of brain cell migration during fetal development, usually between the 3rd and 12th weeks of pregnancy.

There is still a lot of uncertainty, unanswered questions and what’s next to be answered. But none the less, Courtney & I left the doctor’s office in a complete daze, broken-hearted, unsure of the future, speechless…

We got home to tell our oldest son, Caleb the news. That the brother that he had been waiting for so patiently, was going to be different than him. Yesterday, I told myself that I would only allow myself one day to be devastated and tomorrow we would move on and be thankful for our sweet little miracle baby.

I would be lying to you if I told you that I didn’t cry today in fetal position for an hour hoping that yesterday was a dream or if I told you that I wasn’t crying as I wrote this post. But today, I have 2 choices to make…

I can sit alone all day and cry, asking God the why and how questions or I can thank God for the sweet little miracle that He blessed us with. I can be thankful that God trusted Courtney and I with this sweet life. I don’t know why it happened to us, but God clearly thinks that we are capable of this new season. I don’t know how we will do it, but I’m thankful that I can rest in knowing that we are not alone in this. That God will give us the strength, wisdom, knowledge and grace to be the best parents that we can possibly be to this little guy.

So today, I chose to be thankful. And excited, to meet you sweet baby.