Seriously, there are no words to describe how my heart feels today. I just can’t think of a word that will suffice.
What I can tell you is that I didn’t sleep one single minute last night. I was overwhelmed with excitement, nerves, anxiety, unsteadiness, anticipation and so much more. We chose to have a c-section, I’ll talk about that more at a later date, and as I was laying there on the surgery table, all I could ask God for was to cover him, to do a miraculous healing in his body and for him to just be ok.
And at 7:51am, Xander Lee Hampton took his first breath. And he was perfect! We didn’t need to take him to NiCU. The neurologist didn’t have to rush over. He was perfect. Now I don’t know what God has in store for our future. But what I do know is that God knew at 7:51, this perfect little human would breathe his first breath. I know that God has Xander in the center of His palm. And I know that regardless of what the future holds, I will rejoice in what the Lord has made. He created Xander just for Courtney and I. And for Caleb.
As I write this, I weep knowing that Gods love for His children is so deep and so wide, it’s uncomparable, unimaginable, unattenable and there is absolutely nothing that we have done to earn it. But He freely gives it to us. And today was such an amazing reminder of His love & grace.
T-minus 24 hours and little baby will be in our arms! That is if he decides not to come any sooner 😬
There are a million and one thoughts running through my head right about now. So many different emotions I’m trying to process through not to mention the crazy pregnancy hormones have been unleashed these last couple of weeks.
But at the end of all the crazy thoughts my heart is so overwhelmed with gratitude. I’m overjoyed that God gave us a child, when we were told it couldn’t happen. I’m overwhelmed by the love and support we have received from our family and our amazing church family. They have stood next to us through every single moment and been such an encouragement for us. I’m overwhelmed by God’s provision, the strength that He has give us, the grace to walk through this season.
I cannot wait to hold this little guy in my arms and literally smoother him with kisses. And we can’t wait to share this time with you as well! Stay tuned folks!
I write this post as we wait to be seen by the doctor. Brother! Can you please come out and play already!
Caleb wrote a letter to Xander the other day and I wanted to share his sweet heart with you.
There is nothing that I have wanted more than a little brother. Even though the doctors said you will have problems, I’ve prayed for you and believed you were going to be perfect. And you are! And I haven’t even met you!
There has been so many questions I have like, what are you going to look like? What skin color? What eye color? What hair color?
There are just endless wonders about you! And I will make sure to protect you, after all it’s my duty! We all thought you were a miracle and you are a blessing! We all love you and you are perfectly made!
This little boy just melts my heart with his sweetness! ❤ He will be such a great brother!!