Breastfeeding 1. Mama 0. 


If you’ve been following along my blog or if you know me, you know that I’m an avid control freak. Nothing new to some folks.  

With that being said, there were a lot of things that I had planned out with this pregnancy and birth of our new little. For example, I needed to know what day we were going to deliver so I asked the doctor to schedule it asap. I also knew that I was going to breast feed. When I had Caleb, our first born, over 11 years ago, I was young and had no patience to learn.  

But this time around I told myself, you are much older and wiser. You will have patience and you will remain calm so the baby can feed. After all, this is the very best for the baby.  

Within the first hour of our new one’s life, he was latching on and I was so thankful that all was looking good! Over the next couple of days in the hospital we went through endless cluster feedings, tons of lanolin cream, hot and cold presses and zero sleep. Our hospital was great and had a lactation nurse around the clock to come in and help whenever we needed her.  

Then on our third night of the hospital stay, the nurses came in and said, our sweet baby was down 10% of his weight and I needed to start pumping or supplementing formula.  

I was devastated. I couldn’t understand why I was having so much trouble. Why wasn’t my milk coming in already. And why on earth do I have these huge jugs if they are good for nothing! 

I began reading everything I could on how to produce more milk, different techniques, just about everything you could think of I was doing. I was reaching out to friends, on the phone with the lactation nurse for hours. But with each passing day, my breast were literally falling off.  

My nipples began cracking, bleeding, scabs were forming and to be honest they just looked absolutely disgusting. My husband even said they were on life support! I thought there is no way this can be healthy. We had our pediatrician appointment and she encouraged me to continue. They would heal over time she said, you just have to press on she said. So we did.  

I can’t explain to you how much I began dreading feeding time. It was just so painful and I was so worried that he was going to be drinking blood. Regardless of what they say and how it’s not harmless, it still grossed me out. I was always worried that he wasn’t getting enough milk. And with him feeding for 30 minutes on each side, plus I was pumping and giving him what I pumped. Each feeding session was well over an hour and half. My breast were never getting time to breath much less heal.  

I had my follow up appointment with my OB and I had her look at my breast. Her exact response was, “oh God. Yea that’s not ok.” That is just a little hint on how bad they looked. She told me that I needed a break. I needed to incorporate formula and give my breast time to heal. She informed me that they were just one step away from being infected. And that this wasn’t ok for me or for baby.  

I can’t tell you how upset I was. I wanted nothing more but to be super mom and breast feed my baby. I was so worried that if I took a break then I would stop producing and it wasn’t exactly like the milk supply was coming in at an abundance. I went home and cried with my husband. I just felt like a failure.  

My husband reminded me that the most important things are that baby gets fed and I get healthy. And that our first born was a formula fed baby and he is just as healthy as can be. The OB prescribed me a medicated cream and within the next couple of days I began to see a huge difference.  

I am now exclusively pumping and baby is getting formula once or twice a day with breast milk for the remainder of his feedings.   

I write this to encourage those mamas out there that feel like a failure because they can’t breast feed or perhaps they feel judged that they are formula feeding their babies. You must listen to your own body and do what’s best for not just your baby but for yourself too. At the end of the day, you are no good to anyone including your baby if you are unhealthy. Take care of yourself and those tatas! 😬👍🏽🐮

xoxo

Safety. Trust. 


Safety & Trust. The two come hand in hand in.  If you don’t trust someone, you will never feel safe with them.  

This morning I woke up feeling defeated by stupid breastfeeding.  Consumed by thoughts of, “I’m a horrible mother if I give up.” But “you’re a horrible mother anyways because you can’t feed your baby.”  Let’s just say I have a whole new respect for breast feeding mamas.  You are my Heros! 

As I lay the baby down, I began to pray and ask God for help.  What should I do?  Then I open the Bible to this verse, 

“I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.””

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:2

Psalms 91 has to be my favorite chapter of the entire bible but I love that this spoke to me this morning.  It may not be directly related to my breastfeeding break down.  But my entire relationship with the Lord.

This morning I’m reminded that I’m safe. My children are safe.  God is my refugee, my deliverer, my protector, my provider, my comforter, my peace, my joy, my everything.  Anything that I may need today, God is.  I lack nothing.  

Happy Wednesday friends! 

xoxo

Happy 1 week! 


I can’t believe it’s been one week since our little miracle baby was born. Sometimes I wish time would just stop so I could just stare at his sweet face all day. 

February 14, 2017 at 7:51 am our little family of 3 officially became Hampton Party of Four. Xander Lee Hampton weighing 8lbs 5 ounces and 19 1/2″ long was born.  

When we had Caleb, my delivery experience was not so pleasant and there is so much from that evening that I don’t remember. I wish that I could have captured more of it to go back and remember those sweet moments. This time around I wanted to take it all in but I also knew with a c-section I wouldn’t have the luxury to see everything.  

A sweet friend of mine came into the delivery room with Courtney and I and captured this amazing morning. So thankful for her and our friendship. And I’m so incredibly grateful that she was able to be there on this very special day! 

Happy 1 week birthday little guy! 💙

xoxo

To see more pictures by Photography by Fototasticdfw: password is family

No words….

Seriously, there are no words to describe how my heart feels today.  I just can’t think of a word that will suffice.

What I can tell you is that I didn’t sleep one single minute last night.  I was overwhelmed with excitement, nerves, anxiety, unsteadiness, anticipation and so much more.  We chose to have a c-section, I’ll talk about that more at a later date, and as I was laying there on the surgery table, all I could ask God for was to cover him, to do a miraculous healing in his body and for him to just be ok.  

And at 7:51am, Xander Lee Hampton took his first breath. And he was perfect! We didn’t need to take him to NiCU.  The neurologist didn’t have to rush over.  He was perfect.  Now I don’t know what God has in store for our future. But what I do know is that God knew at 7:51, this perfect little human would breathe his first breath.  I know that God has Xander in the center of His palm.  And I know that regardless of what the future holds, I will rejoice in what the Lord has made.  He created Xander just for Courtney and I.      And for Caleb.  


As I write this, I weep knowing that Gods love for His children is so deep and so wide, it’s uncomparable, unimaginable, unattenable and there is absolutely nothing that we have done to earn it.  But He freely gives it to us.  And today was such an amazing reminder of His love & grace.  

xoxo

Almost time! 


T-minus 24 hours and little baby will be in our arms! That is if he decides not to come any sooner 😬 
There are a million and one thoughts running through my head right about now. So many different emotions I’m trying to process through not to mention the crazy pregnancy hormones have been unleashed these last couple of weeks.  
But at the end of all the crazy thoughts my heart is so overwhelmed with gratitude.  I’m overjoyed that God gave us a child, when we were told it couldn’t happen.  I’m overwhelmed by the love and support we have received from our family and our amazing church family.  They have stood next to us through every single moment and been such an encouragement for us.  I’m overwhelmed by God’s provision, the strength that He has give us, the grace to walk through this season.  
I cannot wait to hold this little guy in my arms and literally smoother him with kisses.  And we can’t wait to share this time with you as well!  Stay tuned folks! 
xoxo

Dear brother,


I write this post as we wait to be seen by the doctor.  Brother! Can you please come out and play already! 

Caleb wrote a letter to Xander the other day and I wanted to share his sweet heart with you.  
Dear Xander,

There is nothing that I have wanted more than a little brother.  Even though the doctors said you will have problems, I’ve prayed for you and believed you were going to be perfect. And you are! And I haven’t even met you! 

There has been so many questions I have like, what are you going to look like? What skin color? What eye color? What hair color?

There are just endless wonders about you!  And I will make sure to protect you, after all it’s my duty! We all thought you were a miracle and you are a blessing! We all love you and you are perfectly made! 

Love, 

Caleb 

This little boy just melts my heart with his sweetness! ❤ He will be such a great brother!! 

xoxo

Now we just need a baby…

Project nursery is done. Well for now.  I still need to find curtains that I like and a few frames for his wall.  But overall I am very pleased with how his nursery turned out.  I love that nothing else in our house resembles his room.  I have always been more drawn to shabby chic thanks to my obsession with Joanna Gaines.  But I feel in love with everything monochrome and of course I just HAD to have a teepee.

I found the rug on Overstock.com and was very pleased with how fast it arrived.

The decorative frames and arrow banner are all from Hobby Lobby. Who doesn’t love their 50% discount they have almost monthly on all of their items?!!

The teepee was purchased from Amazon.com and I love that it’s so versatile. I cannot wait to snuggle up with baby and read books to him in there.

The crib sheet and changing pad cover are both from Modern Burlap. I love, love, LOVE this company not only because it’s from Texas but also because they provide organic products as well.  If  you haven’t heard of them, check them out!  The chest of drawers is from Ikea that well took some time and extra hands to put together.

 

And now, we just wait for baby Xander to arrive. Any day now bud!

xoxo

Party of 3, not for much longer


This past Friday, Courtney had the evening off and that happens hardly never. We decided we would spend the entire evening doing whatever Caleb wanted to do. 

After all, this may be our last Friday night as a family of 3. (Gosh I hope so because I’m literally about to burst!) 

I know that this may not seem like a big deal to some families but when your husband is in the restaurant industry, the few evenings that we can all be together are very much cherished.  

Caleb has been an only child for 11 years. And although he is so excited about having a brother, Courtney & I do worry about how having a new child will affect him. We want to make every effort to make sure Caleb never feels neglected, unimportant or left out. We pray that in this new season as a family of four, that we will be intentional with our time and love for both of our children.  

So, here’s to Hampton party of Four! 

xoxo 

what the what?

The closer and closer we get to meeting the little guy, the more and more I seem to be freaking out. Hahaha. I have so many mixed emotions about it all.  Obviously excitement to see him, embrace him and love on him.  Then there is a feeling of being overwhelmed by all of the to-do’s before his arrival.  I mean no matter how much you dust and vacuum the house just never seems to stay clean.  Then, there is the thoughts of do we have everything we need? Do we have enough blankets, wash clothes, diapers? Well crap we haven’t even taken the car seat out of the box to assemble.  The bassinet hasn’t come in the mail yet.  What about Caleb?  Have we spent enough time with him? Have we answered all of his questions? Is everything squared away at work? The list seems to go on forever…

 

Am I the only one that feels this way? Are there any other mama’s out there that have had similar thoughts?  Or am I just the crazy one?  Because I’ve been known to be a little (or lot) crazy.

 

I love that my husband is so calm, on the outside at least. He reassures me that everything is going to be ok.  And if Xander comes early, which is a possibility, that we’ll just “wing it”.  He’s much better at ‘winging’ than I am.  See the control freak inside again??

 

Well keep us in your prayers and if you have any advice, would love to hear it!

xoxo

Showered

Can I just start off with how much I adore and appreciate all of my friends that love and spoil me?!

And spoiled is exactly how I felt last Saturday for Xander’s shower.  Here are a few pictures, taken by my sweet friend Sylvia from FototasticDFW.



Cake & cookies were done by me 😊 I know, I know, I wasn’t supposed to do anything but I couldn’t let my friends do everything!

And how about this precious teepee?! You have no idea the headache we went through trying to get a teepee. Sheesh. We finally got this one from Amazon and had absolutely no problems.  I think it was well worth it, what do you think?

I just loved this super simple photo backdrop. My dear friend found this rug at Hobby Lobby and it was just perfect with the theme 💙


Everything was just perfect. And most of all, I am so glad that I have the most amazing friends that I get to share my life with!

xoxo