Seriously, there are no words to describe how my heart feels today. I just can’t think of a word that will suffice.
What I can tell you is that I didn’t sleep one single minute last night. I was overwhelmed with excitement, nerves, anxiety, unsteadiness, anticipation and so much more. We chose to have a c-section, I’ll talk about that more at a later date, and as I was laying there on the surgery table, all I could ask God for was to cover him, to do a miraculous healing in his body and for him to just be ok.
And at 7:51am, Xander Lee Hampton took his first breath. And he was perfect! We didn’t need to take him to NiCU. The neurologist didn’t have to rush over. He was perfect. Now I don’t know what God has in store for our future. But what I do know is that God knew at 7:51, this perfect little human would breathe his first breath. I know that God has Xander in the center of His palm. And I know that regardless of what the future holds, I will rejoice in what the Lord has made. He created Xander just for Courtney and I. And for Caleb.
As I write this, I weep knowing that Gods love for His children is so deep and so wide, it’s uncomparable, unimaginable, unattenable and there is absolutely nothing that we have done to earn it. But He freely gives it to us. And today was such an amazing reminder of His love & grace.